Right that’s it enough sitting around and dwelling on my thoughts…time to buck up my ideas, get a hold of myself and get back in charge of Me!
For the past few weeks I’ve beyond let myself go, I’ve got into a trap and let myself Not be in control of things. And now I have, today (yes today, as literally just this moment my eyes have opened), that enough is enough. Yes I’ve been down lately, yes I’ve been struggling with things in my mind and using them as an excuse not to do anything and to dwell. But things are on the up and so I need that kick UP the butt too to get my arse back into the swing of it. Things are moving in a new and good direction, in truth they have been doing so over a good few weeks now, and it’s about time I let myself actually go with the flow and stop holding myself back. I have become my own barrier, and now them barriers need to come down. I have become my own worst enemy.
But no more. I will start today, I will get up in a few hours time (it’s currently 1am as I write this) and I shall attend a slimming world meeting, the whole thing, no weigh and run this week. I shall sit and listen and hopefully learn. This is the start of my new, and very much something I need to do. The exercise is still currently avoiding me, or shall I say I’m avoiding it is more accurate, but this needs to stop. Exercise is not only good for the physical, it is good for the mind too, and I really need to start it up again. Even if it’s small and short workouts at home to begin with. I need to do something. I am on night shifts this week, which does put a small spanner in the works as messes my routine … but saying that, I currently have no routine, so can’t use that as an excuse either! It starts tomorrow no more excuses.
You may well ask what has brought this sudden change of mind to me, well two main things have made me realise I’ve let myself give up on me and let myself go again … the first, my new work trousers, fit…. but only just, a little snug on the legs and bum, I have 3 weeks til I start my new job and therefore I have 3 weeks to make them more comfy! And I will do it, there is no way I’m asking for a bigger size! The second thing, happened today. Luckily I was at home at the time but it has left me sad…… my favourite pair of 3/4 length trousers…. well my thighs decided to burst through them today.. I’m feeling both sad and humiliated at this. So I need to do something about it.
New job starting very soon and new studies in September and a new (ok well not new, but perhaps improved) body along the way. Only I can do this and only I can stop myself. Time to be the bigger person (pun not intended) and move on. The past is the past, and when I wake up it will be a new day, I need to cease that day and continue along my path and stop staring down the crossroads. I know it will not be easy, and I know those barriers will come back at times, but it’s a case of pushing myself through them and not letting them halt me in my tracks. Wish me luck!
Thanks for joining me. Catch you soon xx Feeling positive! 💪😃💜